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RESIDENCE ✦ Apartment
GEMBOND ✦ Sapphire APP ✧ PERMISSIONS ✧ KINKLIST ✧ OVERFLOW
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and i want to listen to you too
i'm sorry. i don't wanna get in the way of that
it's funny cause i'm good at listening
but it's hard for me to be honest sometimes
i trust you, though. i don't want you thinking i don't
so
if we want to look at it logically then...
ignis is really busy a lot
and maybe it was unintentional
it's not like he could tell noct "no" if he wanted me along
and not like he could know what would happen
maybe i lack the training, or like
the other stuff and
it made a difference, in how everything happened
me being along for the ride is opportunity, right?
maybe he blames me for the bad things that happened
because i should have been better, or different
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That's really what you want to say, isn't it?
You don't actually think you did something specific to cause whatever happened.
The "cause" is just that you were there.
"If I wasn't there, none of it would have happened."
Did you kill anyone important to the prince?
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but i didn't save anyone either
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Two people are standing on top of the train, you said. You, and someone who did terrible things and killed people important to the prince.
He comes up onto the top of the train and sees both of you.
And of the two of you, the person who killed people he cares about and the person who "didn't save" people he cares about, he decides...YOU'RE the one he blames for what happened?
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if it's not that...
then why?
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You're so upset by what happened that you're desperate to convince yourself you deserved it.
Maybe he thought he was saving you. Getting you away from him, so that you didn't die like the other people he cared about. Doing it in a way he couldn't take back, just in case he lost his nerve at the last minute.
Maybe he was ashamed of the way he'd treated you before. Maybe he told himself the same thing you've been telling yourself — that he had to get you away from him for your own good. That staying close to him would only bring you "bad luck".
People make mistakes...when they're upset and ashamed.
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i never thought about it that way
i wouldn't want him to feel that way
nothing that's happened is his fault, either
and being able to be his friend was the best thing i had
i wouldn't ever want to not be there for him
but just like he can't control how i feel
i guess i can't control that either...
it's a lot to think about
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But you showed me that picture of the two of you together, and I can tell you this for certain:
Being around you made him happy. The best actor in the world couldn't have faked the look on his face.
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being around me
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If you have any doubts, have a picture of me right now. And that's just from texting you.
ATT: hello.jpg
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really
nice
are you wearing pants...
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i'm gonna need further evidence
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take another picture
else i might have to take matters into my own hands
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yknow, like
"come over"
kind of pose
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ATT: pose.jpg
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eah
i definitely
want
to come over
youre gonna be way too cold if you sleep like that alone
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All right, but you'll have to pay an entrance fee at the door.
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Buzz, buzz.
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i like my hair
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