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[snaphappy]

no it
well it sounds weird to say i like hearing about it
but i wanna know everything you wanna tell me
i like knowing about you, and all that is part of you
so you don't have to keep anything from me

[freshprints]

I wish it wasn't part of me.

The only reason I went to that school at all is because I wanted to confront my father. I ignored my grandfather's wishes to do it, but it was important to me. That's what I thought, anyway.

I suppose if I'd listened to him I never would've been there at all.

[snaphappy]

do you regret it? or do you still think it was important?

[freshprints]

I don't remember what I said to him. Logically I must've said something, but that's just a conclusion drawn from other evidence. The actual memories aren't there.

That was the other thing done to us. Erasing our memories. Mine more than most.

I don't know. We started with sixteen and ended with six. I suppose I had something to do with the six that remained, but I also had plenty to do with the ten that didn't.

[snaphappy]

they erased them??
i wonder if we could
get them back somehow...

i think it was important you were there
i wish you hadn't had to be
but six is so much more than none
and it wasn't your fault...

[freshprints]

"Suppressed" is probably a better word for it. Some of them have come back over time, but there's a lot that's still just a blur. Usually I can just fill in those gaps with reasoned assumptions, but it's not the same as knowing.

I started to realize it for certain after we were given our second incentive to kill each other. It was something about revealing our darkest secrets to the world, if there wasn't a killing within twenty-four hours. But my secret card was blank. It made no sense to me, because of course I'd looked beneath my gloves and seen the scars on my hands, and felt as though I had to keep them covered. Surely that would've constituted a "dark secret", if nothing else.

It didn't take long to realize that it wasn't that I "didn't" have a dark secret to present. It was that the mastermind "couldn't" present it — because all of my dark secrets were rooted in the knowledge that had been suppressed.

[snaphappy]

they kinda played themselves with that one huh
no incentive for you

it must be hard though
to not know things about yourself
or to not have someone who can fill in the gaps for you
but maybe they'll all come back after time
suppressed is better than erased at least

actually i...got
this thing, when i got the chocobo
it's a mirror that's supposed to show you memories
like i think you think on it
and it displays whatever in the mirror
i wonder if it would work?

[freshprints]

It's just tedious sometimes. I'll be asked a basic question and realize I can't answer it — "what year is it", for example. I can guess, or draw conclusions. But that's different than knowing.

...Do you want to try, sometime? You might see some unpleasant things.

[snaphappy]

that's okay
i don't mind
if it helps you, i wanna be there
plus what's mine is yours and all that

honestly i've been kinda afraid to look at it myself
it seemed really useful but
there are some things i probably shouldn't see again

hey u could show me big bird

[freshprints]

That sounds like fun. Showing you Big Bird.

...If I go first, maybe that'll make it easier. If you do decide you want to use it yourself.

[snaphappy]

i'll go first
it's wrong to have you do it
when idk how well it works
and i wanna protect u

maybe i just need to think of nice things
something nice i can show you

[freshprints]

Flowers.

Show me flowers from where you're from. I bet they're pretty.

[snaphappy]

you got it, princess ❤